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do you ever get so caught up in the middle of something that you can't see the original vision? that's how i feel right now. i know there's a vision - move back to la, go to seminary, pursue vision for ministry, work on relationship with parents, establish a life to embrace other passions, etc. - but it is very difficult to see that vision right now. i confess that this is harder that i anticipated.
this weekend helped to provide some perspective. i was able to have some much needed socializing and even got to apartment-sit, which was a reality-check that my living situation is indeed not permanent (thank the Lord Almighty!). i love my parents...but...it's too much. i went on a wonderful date (thank the Lord Almighty for his creation of men - especially this one!), who gave me just what i needed - sunshine, sand in my toes, and excellent company. i got even more great company doing one of my favorite things - drinking wine and watching a great movie. i even got the affection of a dog, which sustains me until i get my own.
i am restored and again optimistic. i continue to search for the permanent - shelter and environment, love and mental stimulation. but since the permanent is built upon the foundation of moments like these, i shall continue to move steadfastly through them, not losing sight of the vision which has been given to me. i am excited to live this life through what really matters, instead of what doesn't (see post below), as i feel like i've done for too long now. we spend time on those things which are important to us, right? so, i'm ready to demonstrate with my life that which is important. kind of makes me wonder what i thought integrity was before today....but maybe i didn't have any. |
| posted by Paige @ 9:17 AM |
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